29 July 2010, 9:05 pm
I guess I am glad I do not have to punch a time clock considering the way I feel. I now wish I felt better , and had more money so that I could get out and see the sites and sights here. Wish I felt like doing something. Wouldn't matter if I did because I get harassed when I come back. People steal from me in the apartment. Someone has a key. I do not feel at all safe here, and do hate this subdivsion very very much. I hate that I look so darned crazy . If I had more money, I could feel better, of course, I am not able to work at all, I am in severe pain. I cannot perspire and when I get overly warm, I get sick. Isn't that great. I have trouble telling when it is cold because I am so warm inside. That was done to me deliberately, I suspect. I hope it is reversible. I am not the one , the nurse, who said she could not stand to be cold at all. I would rather be a little chilly. I can always put on more clothes. I don't like to be extremely cold. I have impaired circulation, so that would not be good at all. Mental attitude is a lot of feeling well, even when someone is ill. I have trouble dealing with what goes on here. I never heard of a place like this who would not let seniors get out and go. I don't have much money, but there are places which do not cost much. I have always went where I wanted, day or night. My husband did not care. He did the same. We were law abiding. I have always been law abiding. I did not get out at night if I could avoid it. Here, they have all that daylight in the summer, which could be so wonderful. I had so much looked forward to the bike trails. That was a big attraction to me. I don't want to bike or walk to work. I will not. But I liked to take walks for fun, or bike for fun. They took money from me I desperately needed for eye glasses and dental, things like that. I have not had but one pap smear in the past five years and I believe the last credible mammogram I had was over two years ago. I have a high risk for breast ca. In addition, I have a problem with someone in Anchorage or somewhere near, who is getting revenge over something, constantly mocking and ridiculing me for something. I believe this is the person who could not stand to make mistakes, admit wrong. Could not admit he was less than perfect. Not a relative. I never saw or lived in, or heard of this where people are not allowed to get outside. I started taking walks here, simply walking ten to 12 blocks and had to stop due to someone coming into my apartment every time I left. They have stolen food, jewelry (sentimental valued stuff, not expensive, it was not replaceable.). Cops will do nothing. I am not a criminal and have done nothing criminal, no criminal record. I am not, never was incompetent. It is not that. I don't think it was or is the apartment manager. I am overweight. There are many overweight people here. it is a crime. There are certainly other less than beautiful people here other than me, many. Is that the usual treatment of people in Alaska. I was able to get out and go any where and looked for work for a long long time. Now that I cannot work, they do not want me to get outside at all. It is making me sicker to not be able to get out of this apartment do anything, without extreme worry and fear. They mock me, ridicule me. I drove all the way from Eagle River to Wasilla with a flashing light on, and a fake foot hanging out of my trunk. Never saw a police officer. I drove back, drove into Anchorage, same drill. No cops. Wonder why people can come in and steal? I was hoping to be pulled over to ask an officer something. Oh well. A little variety, though, had a little variety. Thrill of the day. LOL.... Read More »
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